In the past few weeks, I have found myself more mad than glad. My mom used to tell me "You can be happy in the pants that you were just mad in." Or something like that... I've tried, Mom, promise.
The point is I have been completely and totally ticked off with circumstances completely out of my control. I realize I am being totally ridiculous, especially in light of others who are suffering far greater than me today. Last night the stress of last week got to Jeff and I and our last conversation of the day ended with me giving him a detailed list of all the things that were making me mad. I hate that I said the things I did, most were totally self-centered and absolutely stupid.
You see I have been more mad than I realized about the situation with the house. I realize that God has something better for us but it still hasn't helped me not be mad. I have been pathetic in my prayer time because of this. Rereading my words written in my prayer journal I sound like a spoiled brat and that just makes my skin crawl. Truth is, my little apartment with the office in the living room is far better than the shacks that many people in other countries are living in. This post reminded me of that. And I have never suffered the loss of a child like this woman writes about today. These posts put my life into perspective and remind me yet again I am a blessed woman.
I am blessed.
Blessed with a husband who loves me despite my selfish mantras.
Blessed with a job that I enjoy doing so much that it hardly seems fair that I get paid to do this.
Blessed with a sturdy roof over my head, a comfy pair of pants to sleep in and a nice, soft pillow to lay my head.
Blessed with friends who span the globe and who have stood by me through thick and thin.
Blessed with a family who loves me warts and all.
Blessed with a church family that seems like an extension to my family.
Blessed with God's saving grace.
Blessed with a God whose plans for me are bigger than I could ever hope or imagine.
I am blessed.
Showing posts with label Discovering Me. Show all posts
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Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Sixteen Things
I am joining in the fun with Andrea and posting 16 things you may or may not know about me.
1. I can touch my nose with my tongue. I try not to show this talent anymore, although back in the day it was very entertaining.
2. I tried out for Texas Girls Choir in 3rd grade and made it to the last round but never went ahead with it. My parents didn't want me away from home and the yearly dues were very expensive. I don't really feel like I missed anything either.
3. I hate running but I am training for a 10K. Go figure
4. I am memorizing Psalms 37.
5. I hope to memorize 12 Psalms this year, one a month. I am praying that I can do this.
6. I am a creature of habit.
7. I don't like change yet I am praying for big changes right now. God be with me when those changes come. :)
8. I have been having dreams the past few weeks regarding my great grandmother, I miss her greatly.
9. I aspire to be like my great grandmother. She read her bible everyday, walked two miles before 7 am and came home to eat a big breakfast of eggs, sausage, biscuits and bacon. She lived to be 97 years old and was sharp as a take. It must have been the sausage or bacon.
10. I can still remember the table numbers of the restaurant that I worked at in college. Sometimes when I can't sleep I count the tables.
11. I now can only fall asleep with a sleep mask.
12. Every time I bake I have to scrub my kitchen when done. I am a messy baker.
13. I used to play the piano but I can only remember one song.
14. When we move, we are buying a piano first thing and I am going to try to reteach myself. I never thought I would say this but I miss it.
15. I like to clean because it relaxes me but I hate folding and putting away laundry. Despise it!
16. I am counting down until I leave on a little trip next weekend with a good friend. I really, really need a break from the real world. We are going to do nothing but veg out....can't wait!
1. I can touch my nose with my tongue. I try not to show this talent anymore, although back in the day it was very entertaining.
2. I tried out for Texas Girls Choir in 3rd grade and made it to the last round but never went ahead with it. My parents didn't want me away from home and the yearly dues were very expensive. I don't really feel like I missed anything either.
3. I hate running but I am training for a 10K. Go figure
4. I am memorizing Psalms 37.
5. I hope to memorize 12 Psalms this year, one a month. I am praying that I can do this.
6. I am a creature of habit.
7. I don't like change yet I am praying for big changes right now. God be with me when those changes come. :)
8. I have been having dreams the past few weeks regarding my great grandmother, I miss her greatly.
9. I aspire to be like my great grandmother. She read her bible everyday, walked two miles before 7 am and came home to eat a big breakfast of eggs, sausage, biscuits and bacon. She lived to be 97 years old and was sharp as a take. It must have been the sausage or bacon.
10. I can still remember the table numbers of the restaurant that I worked at in college. Sometimes when I can't sleep I count the tables.
11. I now can only fall asleep with a sleep mask.
12. Every time I bake I have to scrub my kitchen when done. I am a messy baker.
13. I used to play the piano but I can only remember one song.
14. When we move, we are buying a piano first thing and I am going to try to reteach myself. I never thought I would say this but I miss it.
15. I like to clean because it relaxes me but I hate folding and putting away laundry. Despise it!
16. I am counting down until I leave on a little trip next weekend with a good friend. I really, really need a break from the real world. We are going to do nothing but veg out....can't wait!
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Good Things to Share
I have come across a few quotes that I love and thought you would love them too.
An interview of Sara Groves in Life Beautiful Magazine, Summer 2008:
" A woman approached Sara and gave her a piece of paper that she has kept to this day. On it were words the woman said were straight from the heart of God. Sara resisted the cynicism she felt rising inside when she first received the note, instead willing herself to "stay open" and consider the woman's message. "[The note] told me to let God define 'normal' for me," Sara says. "It told me that my normal might not look like everyone else's normal and that was okay."
My theme verse that I have recently adopted, Ephesians 2:10
"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."
I find that when I am open to the plans God has for me I am content in the waiting. Not only am I content but I am joyful and joy leads to perfect peace.
I gave up long ago trying to define the plans God had for me. Throughout my life there is evidence time and time again that God's plans for my are different from my peers. I am on a different path and I am okay with that-truly.
It helps to know that God knew in advance what I would be doing today. He knew what my hopes would be and He knew what struggles I would face in this present moment. I believe that all of these are working for a bigger cause than I could ever imagine. I choose to live in the moment because that is all that I that God asks of me. The proof of this is found in Matthew 6:34, "Don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."
I choose to let God write my story however He chooses fit. I trust His plans and look forward to how the future will unfold.
An interview of Sara Groves in Life Beautiful Magazine, Summer 2008:
" A woman approached Sara and gave her a piece of paper that she has kept to this day. On it were words the woman said were straight from the heart of God. Sara resisted the cynicism she felt rising inside when she first received the note, instead willing herself to "stay open" and consider the woman's message. "[The note] told me to let God define 'normal' for me," Sara says. "It told me that my normal might not look like everyone else's normal and that was okay."
My theme verse that I have recently adopted, Ephesians 2:10
"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do."
I find that when I am open to the plans God has for me I am content in the waiting. Not only am I content but I am joyful and joy leads to perfect peace.
I gave up long ago trying to define the plans God had for me. Throughout my life there is evidence time and time again that God's plans for my are different from my peers. I am on a different path and I am okay with that-truly.
It helps to know that God knew in advance what I would be doing today. He knew what my hopes would be and He knew what struggles I would face in this present moment. I believe that all of these are working for a bigger cause than I could ever imagine. I choose to live in the moment because that is all that I that God asks of me. The proof of this is found in Matthew 6:34, "Don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it's own."
I choose to let God write my story however He chooses fit. I trust His plans and look forward to how the future will unfold.
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
Life: Beautiful
I found this pillow yesterday while reading the latest issue of Life:Beautiful. If you haven't seen it, take a moment to click on the link. This is a Christan magazine by James Dobson, Joyce Meyer and Dr. Gary Smalley. I love it!
One of my favorite features is an advertisement by this woman. I love to browse through her online portfolio. Last night when I saw this pillow and quote from Eleanor Roosevelt I decided to adopt her quote as my new motto. I know I am not perfect by any means and fall into the small mind category way too often but my goal is to be a great mind at least 95% of the time.
I think that is a goal worth striving for don't you?
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
When I Feel Blah
Do you ever just wake up and think, "Here we go again!"
Sometimes the montony of life can wear me down and I find myself not feeling as jolly as I should.
I was looking out the window this morning giving myself a pep talk uttering things like, "This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice in be glad in it, dad gum it!" But I just haven't felt the rejoice part kick in even after my 2nd cup of coffee. Friends I was feeling blah!
I started to blog it out, erased a line, started fresh (because who wants to sound like a bah hum bug really) and decided I should make a list.
Over the years, I have realized when I feel blah there is something in my life that I am not dealing with, something that needs to be resolved. It could be as simple as an errand that needs to be run, a bill to pay, a phone call to make or I just need to take a shower and put a little pep on my face.
Isn't it funny how getting dressed with hair fixed and make up can make you feel better? I swear it works.
So when I start to feel blah, instead of sitting around moping I follow this little rule of thumb.
1) pray about it (and I confess, sometimes this is the last thing I do)
2) make a to do list of all the things that I am putting off that are starting to weigh me down.
3) open up the blinds, raise a few windows if the weather is right, and turn on my favorite praise and worship music. Something about the combination of praise music and sunlight always lifts my spirits.
4) I take a shower, slap on some make up and comb my hair. Getting dressed adds an extra measure of umph to my day-call me vain but it does help.
5) I take 15 minutes to straigten up the crap laying around my house. Sometimes all the papers, dirty clothes and excess clutter laying around brings me down. I have learned that if I motivate myself to clean for 15 minutes that usually does the trick. And do you realize how much you can get done in 15 minutes?
And usually, this does it for me. I find that I am not so ho-hum any more and have the pep back in my step. So what do you do when you feel blah?
Sometimes the montony of life can wear me down and I find myself not feeling as jolly as I should.
I was looking out the window this morning giving myself a pep talk uttering things like, "This is the day the Lord has made, let us rejoice in be glad in it, dad gum it!" But I just haven't felt the rejoice part kick in even after my 2nd cup of coffee. Friends I was feeling blah!
I started to blog it out, erased a line, started fresh (because who wants to sound like a bah hum bug really) and decided I should make a list.
Over the years, I have realized when I feel blah there is something in my life that I am not dealing with, something that needs to be resolved. It could be as simple as an errand that needs to be run, a bill to pay, a phone call to make or I just need to take a shower and put a little pep on my face.
Isn't it funny how getting dressed with hair fixed and make up can make you feel better? I swear it works.
So when I start to feel blah, instead of sitting around moping I follow this little rule of thumb.
1) pray about it (and I confess, sometimes this is the last thing I do)
2) make a to do list of all the things that I am putting off that are starting to weigh me down.
3) open up the blinds, raise a few windows if the weather is right, and turn on my favorite praise and worship music. Something about the combination of praise music and sunlight always lifts my spirits.
4) I take a shower, slap on some make up and comb my hair. Getting dressed adds an extra measure of umph to my day-call me vain but it does help.
5) I take 15 minutes to straigten up the crap laying around my house. Sometimes all the papers, dirty clothes and excess clutter laying around brings me down. I have learned that if I motivate myself to clean for 15 minutes that usually does the trick. And do you realize how much you can get done in 15 minutes?
And usually, this does it for me. I find that I am not so ho-hum any more and have the pep back in my step. So what do you do when you feel blah?
Monday, February 11, 2008
Letting Go
I didn't know when I started this journal that God would use this time to change many of my stubborn ways. I didn't know starting into this time that He was going to show me that I am sooo not in control of my little world as I had hoped.
Please forgive me if my absence is noticed the next few days. I just need to take time out this week to get some clarity on a few things.
I do have a praise though that I think is worth dancing a jig. My father in law has his 3rd interview today at 2 with a wonderful company. To God be the glory with wherever He leads him.
Enjoy the next few days
Susan
Friday, January 18, 2008
Discovering Me
1. Vintage Apron, 2. soho red door, 3. joe's" house, 4. the office, 5. 20051124 - First Snow of the Year - 1, 6. buttons, 7. Cure, 8. Hide and seek, 9. we could be friends vintage pin back button set, 10. Suitcases, 11. Gingerbreads., 12. Christmas inspiration ...I discovered this idea on Ali Edwards website. And the last few days have found that I like vintage items and I love the color red.
After I realized that I love the color red I made a list of everything red in my life for the past 30 years.
1. I had a red little red riding hood coat made by my grandmother.
2. My grandmother made Annie's dress when I was little and I wore it often.
3. My first pair of glasses were bright red rimmed glasses.
4. My lunch box in Kindergarten was a red Strawberry Shortcake.
5. My school's colors growing up were red and white.
6. Our school mascot were the Red Cardinals.
7. My first car was a red (more maroon) Ford Taurus.
8. My favorite robe I wear around the house is red.
9. I have a red pashmina that I love.
10. I am the proud owner of a red leather jacket.
Truth is, I didn't realize how much I love red until I took this journey of self discovery through the Flick files. Fascinating, really.
Oh and one more red thing you can add to the list.
Jeff promised me that when we have a house, we will have a red door either the front door (if it looks right) or somewhere in our house probably leading to my office/craft room. Because Jeff also promised me (even if we purchase one of those portable buildings and stick me out back) that I will have a craft room and an office separate from my living room. But for now I am just happy discovering that my true, authentic favorite color is red.
That's all for me this week.
Have a wonderful weekend!
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