Goodbye Long Hair

You may have not known this but I have been growing my hair out to donate to Locks of Love.



I have always wanted to do this and have spent the last year and a half growing it out. Towards the end, it became a real labor of love and I was happy to chop it off on Saturday.


The process wasn't made easier by my co-workers who nicknamed me Penny Pentecostal due to my long locks. Or that I made the mistake of relaying this story to Jeff and he started calling me Penny as well. One night I was sitting in B & N when a guy started to hit on me. I was wearing one of my new summer skirts, a tee shirt and had my hair in a bun. I probably didn't have a lot of make up on because by 8 p.m. it had worn off already and why would I touch it up that late in the night? The conversation turned into a ministry opportunity for me and by the end I had invited him to church. You won't believe the first thing he asked once he heard I went to church.




"Is it a Pentecostal church?"



Seriously?!? I knew then it was time to cut my hair.



(Side note: I mean no harm to the Pentecostal religion, the women typically keep their hair very, very long---that's all)




This past Saturday was the day. As she was chopping off my hair I had a moment where I thought "Am I making a mistake?" Flashbacks to the haircut of 1996 were flashing through my mind. A haircut I choose not to repeat. Ever.




Thankfully, I am very happy with the results. I feel like I am getting a fresh start and that is a wonderful feeling these days. Not to mention that Jeff LOVES it! I mean LOVES. IT.


Here is the best picture I could get while home alone tonight. I went for the serious look in this one.




And here is another one...I was feeling a bit sassy. Can you tell?

I can't wait to send in my Locks of Love this week.

1) Because the "tail" kind of gives me the creeps and I have hidden it in a drawer.
2) Someone is going to be blessed with a wig from my long locks.

Celebrating God's Goodness

The other night I joined my mom and brother at a praise and worship night for small group leaders at their church. It was my mom's birthday and she wanted her kids with her so we could worship together.

Throughout the night, I was reminded of God's faithfulness to our little family of three. Who would have thought that 20 years after my parent's divorce that all 3 of us would be serving in some capacity at our churches. It gives me great joy to realize that God could us warts and all to further His kingdom.

We have been blessed throughout these years to see God's mighty hand at work in our lives. In recent years we have been blessed to see God turn the bad into good. And I want to take a moment to publicly applaud my mom.

This past two years she has been ministering to a group of ladies she calls Lemonade Ladies. Each one of these ladies are choosing to take the lemons that have been thrown at them and turn them into something sweet. My mom is pouring out her life experiences into each one of their lives and pointing them back to the only one who can fix the mess, Jesus Christ. I am proud of her and enjoy hearing how each Lemonade Ladies life has touched my mom.

I was reminded the night of my mom's birthday that God does hear our cries and answers our prayers. I have learned over the years one simple truth about God: if you seek Him, you will find Him.

MOM, you are doing a great job and I am proud of you for taking your lemons and turning them into lemonade. Continue the path that God has laid out for you and be still and know that He is God. XOXOX Love you to pieces!!!

- your blue-eyed Susan

P.S We may look a little rough in the picture because all three of us were a puddle of tears at one point in the night. Just keeping it real, peeps! Just keeping it real

Summer Reading 2009

Nothing says summer like a reading list, maybe this stems from my school days.

I absolutely love sitting by the pool and sticking my nose in a good book. This summer I am putting away the biographies and pulling out the fluff. Don't get me wrong, I have enjoyed the biographies but it's summer, I need a break. Oh how I love the slower pace that summer brings!

Random...

Do you ever have a bunch of posts you want to write but really don't have the time to write them all? My blog is feeling a bit neglected so I thought I would write a bunch of random things happening in our world. Photos will come later since they are all still on my camera.


1. May is a busy month in the Young household. Birthday parties,(12 total) mother's day, end of the school year events makes May a very busy month
2. June looks like it will be more of the same...sigh
3. I have turned my office inside out this week reorganizing and decorating. I am exhausted from all the moving and shaking I have done but very happy with results (photos coming soon)
4. I decided to hang curtains in my living room Tuesday afternoon, drove to wal-mart at 7 then had them hung by 10 that night. Jeff did not know I was doing this so when I called him at work he said, "Seriously, you did that tonight?"
5. Thankfully he came home and said, "It looks very nice. Great job!"
6. Yesterday afternoon I decided to clean out my storage unit on our patio. I threw away 5 bags of junk between work and the past mementos. I did not throw away my Bald Girls Have More Fun t-shirt from when I was a baby. I still can't believe that I was bald until I was 2, my mom has pictures to back it up though.
7. I found a box of old love letters that Jeff wrote me when we were dating. I cried when I read them probably because the letters don't come as often as they used to, say like um, never :)
8. He does tell me he loves me every day so I can't complain
9. I also found an outfit my grandmother made with the tag "Made with love by Granny" sewed in. I will never throw this outfit out because of that little tag.
10. I took my grandfather to get a cataract removed. Afterwards we feasted on Sonic burgers and had a nice long chat about life in general. I pray that God uses these conversations to open doors for me to talk to him about God.
11. Work just called, got to go be a good, hardworking employee now.


Man that was a random post
Happy Friday!

Happy Birthday Faithers!

Today my niece Faith turns 10! She makes being an aunt so much fun. I love our friendship and the special bond that we have simply because she was the first to call me Aunt Sue Sue.

But I was reminded the other night how fast she is growing up....

This picture was taken after she made a very funny comment to me. Well funny to me but not so funny to her mom and dad. In the middle of telling me about how she will be next year's school Treasurer she let a little confession slip from her mouth.

"And the boy in my life is the President!"

Right at that moment, Missy (her mom) walks by to refill her drink.

"What?!?! The boy in your life! Who is this?!?!?"

And her Dad pipes in and says, "There will be no boys in your life just yet. I am the man in your life and Elijah (her little brother) is the boy in your life."

Faith just laughs.

It's funny to me but also very sad at the same time. These kids sure do grow up fast and it makes me want to cherish every moment with them.

Notice in the picture below her dad's protective hand.


God help him the day she has her first date or maybe I should say God help the boy who is brave enough to knock on the door. :)

I love you Faith Gwen! You are a precious young lady from the inside out and God has great plans for you!

P.S. Mom's birthday celebration was yesterday and I promise you Mom you will get a special post all of your own in the next few days

Menu Planning: Grocery Shopping

One of my favorite household chores is grocery shopping. I guess it is because it makes me feel like a big girl. :) Or as Jeff would tell you, I love any excuse to plan and make a list.

When I make my grocery list, I first start with my menu plan. I write down the ingredients that I will need to make dinner. I also write down any items on my "short list."

Short List- an ongoing list of any items that you may be running low and or out of . I keep my short list on the refrigerator for easy access.

When I make my grocery list, I divide it into different categories. You know meat, dairy, can goods and household items. Here is a bonus tip, if you have an ITouch or IPhone you must get The Shopper App It is fantastic! It will divide it into categories for you plus it makes life much more simpler.

Here is what I used prior to being blessed with the Shopper ap.

I try to keep my grocery shopping simple. I usually shop at one store instead of going to where the deal is. It is just what works for me. I will buy the items that I use often in bulk because that saves us money in the end. But I have found that making a menu, grocery list and sticking to the list has been a huge help in the money saving department.

If you coupon shop or have any tips for saving on the bottom line, I would love to hear your ideas.

My New Summer Style

I have been on a hunt lately for some cute summer skirts. I am not usually in the mood for skirts or dresses but have found them to be quite comfortable lately. It also could because Clinton and Stacey (What Not To Wear) were telling someone the other day how practical a skirt can actually be and I wanted to be practical too. Although, let me go on record by saying I do not agree that you need to wear a skirt while walking the dog nor do I think there is anything wrong with wearing running shorts and a tee shirt while grocery shopping at Wal Mart. If you could see the people that shop at my Wal-Mart, you would realize I am many steps above the typical patron's attire of pajama pants and fuzzy slippers. Call me crazy but there is something not right with that.

I am happy to report that after a few weeks of trying on dresses and skirts, I found this dress **that I adore at my favorite store. I also scored a sweet deal on these shoes from my other favorite store. Tomorrow I plan on heading to the mall to see if I can find a good flowery skirt like the picture above. I am also looking forward to sporting the dress and shoes to church on Sunday because nothing says "Happy Sunday" like wearing a new dress. :)

**the link is not working for the dress, it's the blue trapanuto dress at the bottom of the page (you will understand when you click on the link)

Menu Planning-Phase One

I am working on stream lining my menu plan and grocery shopping. My goal is to be able to have a 6-week rotation established so that I can create a standard grocery list and buy what I need in bulk.

My post it notes have been a huge help in keeping track of what we eat. (Please note the lasagna listed twice in a four week period, it's hubs all time favorite food) I usually try to keep it simple during the week since hubs works nights and has to be out the door by 6:15. Because of his work schedule, I try to avoid recipes that take 30-45 minutes. Lasagna obviously takes longer but it is the perfect meal to prepare in advance so all you have to do is throw it in the oven an hour before you eat.

When I am planning my menu, I follow this simple list.

Monday- salad or soup, sometimes both
Tuesday- Mexican
Wednesday- Chicken
Thursday- Pasta (lasagna, manicotti, spaghetti)
Friday night- Pizza night (sometimes with the family but most times a pizza from sam's club)
Saturday & Sunday- usually the kitchen is closed but every once in awhile I will cook gourmet sandwiches or Jeff will grill out

As you can see, I like things quick and easy. Nothing too over the top and nothing that requires much time.

Come back next Wednesday for Phase Two: Establishing a Grocery List.

Feel free to share your menu planning tips as well.

Overhaulin the Living Room/Office

The biggest thorn in my flesh is my living room/office. I have not done anything with this little place because I kept thinking we were going to move. And as you already know that is not the case right now, at least for another 6 months. Now my living room/office is going to get a major overhaul because I am choosing to fully embrace this period of our life.

The plan is simple: throw away and redecorate.

Here is a few of the things I am going to do.

• I am keeping the desk because I really need the storage for catalog pictures.

• I am changing out the office chair to something with more pizazz. Maybe a zebra print dining chair
• I am adding a hutch to my makeshift desk to house my notebooks and other misc office stuff.
• I am adding curtains to the windows since Jeff refuses to paint.
• I am also giving the love seat that the in laws gave to us to my sister in law (she has the matching sofa)
• I am bringing in my favorite chair and ottoman from storage.
• I plan to add a few lamps since we do not have an overhead light in the living room.
  
• I have a rug that I am going to throw down on our worn, dull apartment carpet.

My goal is to have the office serve as an office by day and a living room by night. At the end of the day, I want to clean off my desk and sit in my comfy chair without having to look at all this junk.

I realize that this is going to be a huge challenge but I am looking forward to having this project to sink my teeth into. I will keep you posted as I progress.

P.S. The above picture is what my desk looks like during the middle of catalog update season. It can get to be pretty scary and messy at times.

Motherhood isn't for wimps

I am playing house with the nieces and nephew for a few days while the parents are in Israel.

I had a good chuckle to myself last night once the kids were all in their beds.  They were very thoughtful last night to let me know that it was officially time for bed.  We talked about this in advance.  I asked them to give me a signal when they were ready to head upstairs they said don't worry they will. And lo and behold right around bedtime they all melted down one after the other, just like a stack of dominoes. Aren't they nice to oblige their dear aunt?

Little E was so tired that he even told his sister "Don't you even think about praying for me tonight!"  Faith wasn't phased by this and prayed anyway.  Which may be the reason he slept all night, in his own bed.  Praise Yah Jesus

Anyway the chuckle came when I was dragging myself to bed completely and totally whipped from my day. I just had to laugh at my tired butt since most of my friends live this life 24-7. I mean motherhood is not for wimps.  Thankfully they start small, that's all I'm saying.

On a side note, I would like to take a moment to thank the Lord for a little miracle that happened today. The 7-year old only said "I don't know what I want to wear" 30 times instead of 150.  She sure did get moving fast when I told her that if she wasn't dressed when the muffins were ready that she would have to get cereal.  This girl will do almost anything for a food that can be paired with butter.

Good times at our place.  

Good times.

P.S. the other miracle is happening as we speak, Eli is sound asleep on the couch after falling asleep in the car.  We are now going into the 45 minute stretch 

This TIme Last Year...

I wanted to post a blog specifically for a few readers who are feeling what I was feeling this time last year.  For those of us who want to be mothers yet struggle with infertility, this weekend will not be easy.  Last year was my hardest year to go through, all I wanted to do is crawl in a whole until Mother's day was done.  

I have a few people I am thinking about tonight and my heart aches for you.  I know that you are struggling and I know that you feel like God has forgotten you.  And yes, it's hard but I promise it gets easier.

You see this time last year, I was in the darkest part of my journey with infertility.  I was angry, bitter and self loathing.  I tried to cover up by pretending I was doing good, yet God brought a few friends in my life that could see right through my facade.  These friends have been godsends to me this past year.  They call and encourage me.  They cry with me and they pray with me.  I encourage those of you who are where I was this time last year to let go and reach out to those around you.  I encourage you to get on your knees and allow God to carry your load.

This year, I would be lying if I told you that I wasn't sad.  I would be lying if I didn't tell you that I never imagined another Mother's day without a baby on the way or one cuddled in my arms.  Yet, this is where I am today.  This is my reality.  For the past 2 years, I have been on an emotional roller coaster.  Month after month, I received the same news.  Yet month after month I have found that God's strength is enough to carry me through.  Month after month, the dark days have become shorter and the happy days longer.  I have grown in my faith and love for God.  I have cherished more of my journey this past year more than anytime in my life.  I have replaced my bitterness with joy and praise God for bringing me to where I am today.

So for those of you where I was this time last year, don't loose hope.  Lay your burdens at the feet of Jesus and let Him heal you, let Him transform you from the inside out.  God is with you even in your darkest days, He is with you.

This year, Jeff is taking me on  a special outing on Saturday afternoon.  This year, Jeff and I are going to serve together in the children's church on Sunday.  Oh how we love these kids.  We are also going to celebrate our mom's who have been a huge source of strength to both of us this year.  I praise God for this man who has been a rock to me especially the past few months.

This year I choose joy.  

This year I choose peace.

This year I celebrate with many friends who have been blessed with children this year after many years of trying. (You know who you are...wink. wink)

This year I wait with hope.

This year I trust God and the plans He has for me.

My Living In The Moment Happy List

There is a peace in my heart that runs deep today. Praise God for whom all blessings flow! It would be easy for me to grow mad at the fact that we are in the middle of another waiting period but this time around everything feels different. I don't really feel like I am in a holding pattern but I feel I am right where God wants us.

The following is a list of things I enjoy right now in this season of my life. I call it my living in the moment list. It's very helpful to have a list like this handy for those days where the peace is not running so deep.

1. Walks & Talks with Jeff- every afternoon Jeff and I walk our neighborhood. We have one rule and that is we are supposed to talk. Jeff is a very quiet person by nature so this has been fun to hear his thoughts as we walk and talk.

2. Reading a Good Book- I love a good book, something I can sink my teeth into and turn off the day with.

3. Prayer Journal- going back and reading my heart and how God has transformed my prayers has been a real blessing. I can see we are right where we need to be and look forward to how God is using this time to grow and transform us.

4. Feeling Crafty- I went through a crafting hiatus when I thought we were about to move. I am starting to feel the creative juices flow again and can't wait to spend a good chunk of my evening one night getting crafty.

5. Hanging with friends (big & small) - I have some great friends and these friends have some fun kiddos. Jeff and I are not one of those couples who hates being around kids. In fact, we find much joy in sitting outside and talking to our little friends. The things that come out of our little friends mouths are HILARIOUS and keeping us laughing for days.

6. Learning new things- I love to try new things. Right now I am learning to bake new things like bread and fancy snacks. Lots of fun but not very good for the diet. Praise God for freezers to store them in. :)

7. Redecorating- for so long I have been waiting for us to move and have missed opportunities to nest in my place. This past week I went to World Market and had one of those moments where my decorating surges went into overdrive. I decided to take the money that I had set aside to decorate up our home and use a little of it for the apartment. As my friend Andrea says, "Surround yourself with the things you love." (I will share a blog post when I finish, promise)

8. Serving God in the moment- It would be easy for me to grow bitter and nasty for the waiting period but instead I am open to wherever God leads. I believe that because my heart is open, God has opened up many opportunities for me to serve Him in the waiting. I praise God for these opportunities to look beyond myself and bless others. This to me is one of the greatest joys I have found over the past few years.


There you have it- a little glimpse into the things that make me happy.

God is blessing our journey!

Enjoying the Journey

When the house fell through Jeff and I's first question was "Lord, what are you up to?" Jeff even said it was like manna from heaven. It just fell into our laps and just seemed perfect for us.

And well you know the rest of the story.

For the past few weeks, Jeff and I have been looking at houses but nothing has felt like home. I would like one but he wouldn't and vice versa. Needless to say, I knew something big was about to happen.

About this time last week, Jeff and I were having our daily walk & talks around the neighborhood when he started telling me what was on his heart. At first I wanted to kick and scream and cry out no. In fact, I did for about 20 steps then I stopped, asked him to start over and turned my listening ears on.

When Jeff and I first got married, my brother encouraged us to take Crown Financial Bible Study. (Does this mean I can blame my big brother for the latest turn of events? Just kidding) This bible study changed our lives. We made a goal for ourselves to be 100% debt free. Slowly but surely we are getting there, unfortunately we still have one big fat student loan left to pay off. In our checking account sits a down payment for a house, which happens to be the exact amount to pay off our student loan. I guess you guys know what I am about to tell you don't you?

We have decided to take a huge leap of faith, pay off this last student loan and put the house on hold. Why are we doing this? Because a man named Dave Ramsey once told us that we should have 15-20% saved up, as well as 6 months of an emergency fund before we move into a house.

I need to tell you before I tell you more, I am very excited about this new adventure.

1) we will be debt free

2) I have prayed for Jeff to lead our family and through this adventure he is doing just that.

If you would have told me a year ago or even 6 months ago this is where we would be going, I would have not believed you and probably kicked and screamed all the way home. But today, I feel confident that we are right where we need to be and I can't help but feel like this may have been God's plan all along.

We are confident that we have made the best decision for us and look forward to where this new path leads us.

More posts coming soon of how we are transforming our small one bedroom apartment to a place of peace and serenity. Which basically means this chick has bought a real desk so I can close up the office at the end of the day. ;)

Jeff rewarded me with a bowl of ice cream and Reese's magic shell for getting through my testimony without crying. Actually, I teared up a few times but I never went to the ugly cry. Apparently I have some very good friends at church who told him that I deserved my bowl of ice cream, so we stopped on the way home from small group to get the goods. Isn't he a great man?!? Thanks friends for helping a chick out!

This week's goals are simple. One word says it all. RELAX!

Already I am off to a good start with the rain and a massage from a friend. Life is going at a much slower pace and for this I am very, very grateful.

I will be back in a few to tell you guys of the latest happenings in the Young household.

One Day I'll Be Caught Up

here are a few things keeping me from the blog world.

1) Planning a women's retreat for church (4 days to go)

2) celebrating April birthday's with family and friends

3) Facebook

4) shopping for women's retreat decor, my favorite part of the whole process

5) Easter Egg hunting, hide and seek with the kiddos and a little jumping rope too

(this is Cousin Gracen. She is a bundle of energy and Cousin Jennifer was her mom. Gracen told me the other day that I was her newest friend...so cute that one! Keep praying for the family Jenn's birthday was this past Friday, a bittersweet day really)

6) losing 6 lbs in two weeks (it's amazing what watching your calories and walking 2 miles can do)

7) reading books

8) praying for the women's retreat (7 more people needed to reach our goal-wanna come?)

9) Art Fest 2009-unfortunately we didn't dance in the streets this year-the littlest nephew is not a fan of crowds or loud noises right now

10) babysitting the littlest nephew so that his mother doesn't loose her mind.

Jacob wanted to make sure Uncle Jeff's ears were clean, he must not have liked what he saw because thirty seconds after this picture he started to cry. I'm sorry, Jacob, Aunt Sue Sue should have warned you that you would uncover something scary in there.

11) did I mention a women's retreat that I am heading up, happening in 4 days!

I will be back in a few days.

Nothing Says Happy Easter like a Basket Filled with Sweet Goodness

I have nothing funny, profound or whitty to say these days but I have enjoyed a few little nuggets from others blog that I thought would be fun to pass on to you.

Consider this your blogging easter basket from me to you and each little link is an egg inside your basket. The egg of course if filled with sweet goodness (only the best for my blogging peeps)


1. Beth's recent post

2. a post for every parent who had to help with the child's school project

3. a great idea for old t-shirts that you can't wear anymore

4. and this post is just plain good for my prideful spirit

5. And last but not least-a sweet thought from FLYLADY


I hope you enjoy your basket of sweet goodness.

Happy Easter!

True Confession #275

In the past few weeks, I have found myself more mad than glad. My mom used to tell me "You can be happy in the pants that you were just mad in." Or something like that... I've tried, Mom, promise.

The point is I have been completely and totally ticked off with circumstances completely out of my control. I realize I am being totally ridiculous, especially in light of others who are suffering far greater than me today. Last night the stress of last week got to Jeff and I and our last conversation of the day ended with me giving him a detailed list of all the things that were making me mad. I hate that I said the things I did, most were totally self-centered and absolutely stupid.

You see I have been more mad than I realized about the situation with the house. I realize that God has something better for us but it still hasn't helped me not be mad. I have been pathetic in my prayer time because of this. Rereading my words written in my prayer journal I sound like a spoiled brat and that just makes my skin crawl. Truth is, my little apartment with the office in the living room is far better than the shacks that many people in other countries are living in. This post reminded me of that. And I have never suffered the loss of a child like this woman writes about today. These posts put my life into perspective and remind me yet again I am a blessed woman.



I am blessed.

Blessed with a husband who loves me despite my selfish mantras.

Blessed with a job that I enjoy doing so much that it hardly seems fair that I get paid to do this.

Blessed with a sturdy roof over my head, a comfy pair of pants to sleep in and a nice, soft pillow to lay my head.

Blessed with friends who span the globe and who have stood by me through thick and thin.

Blessed with a family who loves me warts and all.

Blessed with a church family that seems like an extension to my family.

Blessed with God's saving grace.

Blessed with a God whose plans for me are bigger than I could ever hope or imagine.

I am blessed.

Kari Jobe-Pure

I will be back in a couple days with a real post but I have been listening to this song lately and just had to share it with you. Have a great Monday!

A Wow Moment

I realize that our family is not the only ones hurting right now. Many of us our facing trials that just leave us scratching our heads, wondering what in the world is going on. When the trials come, when we have more bad days than good, it's easy for us to question if God is with us. I am hear to say that He is with us-good days and bad. If you don't believe me, watch this video. Man, was I floored by what Louie had to say---so good!

"But we have this treasure in jars of clay, to show that the surpassing power belongs to God and not to us. We are afflicted in every way, but not crushed; perplexed, but not driven to despair; persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed; always carrying in the body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be manifested in our bodies. For we who live are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. So death is at work in us, but life in you."

2 Corinthians 4: 7-12

No more sorrow, No more pain

"She has fought the good fight. She has finished the course and won the race."

2 Timothy 4:7

I have mixed emotions as I type this. I am glad that Jennifer is no longer in pain yet my heart aches for Brent and the kids as they enter into a world without their wife and mother.

As soon as we heard, I started to belt the praise and worship music through the house-sometimes you need a bit of praise music to sooth you. One of my favorite songs on my playlist is I Will Rise by Chris Tomlin. I tried to find a video so I could post on the blog and instead I found this video talking about the story behind I Will Rise.

And here is Chris singing the song live. I think the person who was filming this had a moment where they needed to stand up with praise. :)



If you think about the Hickman family please stop and say a prayer!

"There is an anchor for our soul, I can say it is well"
Chris Tomlin-I Will Rise

Loosening My Grasp

In the song that I will be singing at the Women's Renewal there is a line that I love.

"I'm loosening my grasp, there's no need to mask my frailty but you see the real me."

I love the phrase "loosening my grasp" because how many times have I held on tightly to one thing or the other.

The past few weeks have been very surreal for me. By nature, I am a planner. I like to have all my days lined out and plans in place a few weeks in advance. Since the beginning of our relationship Jeff has tried to get me to loosen up a bit. On our honeymoon Jeff had this wonderful adventure planned out for us in California and every time we were some where new I would say "What's next on our list?" He would answer back with "You taking medicine or something? Relax! Enjoy yourself." So for the past six years I have been working very hard at sitting back, relaxing a bit and enjoying each day as they come. Yet I often find myself wandering what God is doing with us. Last night as I was straightening the house, I had a moment where it all clicked.

Why not enjoy the path God has chosen for you instead of struggle against it?

I treat God the same way that I treated Jeff on our honeymoon. Jeff had this wonderful adventure planned out for me yet I couldn't enjoy the present moment because I was consumed with what would be happening next. I find myself doing the same thing to God today. When we moving? When are we going to have a baby? Why are we waiting? Why can't we have it all right now? What are you up to Lord?

But you see God has this wonderful adventure planned out for me as well and I believe that He wants me to enjoy this moment fully. I need to trust God's plan for our life. I need to sit back, relax and enjoy the road ahead. And so that is just what I am going to do.

Today in my journal I wrote, "Lord, forget the plan. Forget trying to figure it all out. Help us Lord to trust your guiding hand. Lead us Lord-show us your ways."


"In his heart a man plans his course, bu the Lord determines His steps." Proverbs 16:9

Song In My Head: Bring the Rain

Jeff and I find it a bit funny that God has taken a few things off our plates in recent days. We feel that one of the reasons for this is so that we can focus on our family. Jennifer entered hospice care today at her house, in order for her to spend her final days surrounded by her family. My heart breaks for Brent and the kids and I have found myself praying all morning for God to bless their time. Someone asked me last night how I was doing with all the house stuff and I can honestly say that I am doing very well. Jennifer's cancer has really helped me put into perspective our life situation. Yes, I look forward to moving day and I also look forward to positive plus sign day but neither one is happening right now. Instead of kicking and screaming and asking "Why Lord" I find myself trusting God's timing with peace and joy. I never want to look back on this season on our lives and realize that we missed opportunities to serve in the waiting. I want to serve God fully whatever road He chooses for Jeff and I.

Please continue to pray for the family. The road ahead is not going to be easy but we trust God has a plan bigger than this present moment.

Lord, You Are In Control

You know everyone has had those days that left us wondering what the Lord was doing behind the scenes. Yesterday was Jeff and my day. We had an inspection done on the house that did not go the way we thought. In fact I echo Jeff's sentiments when he described our day as just plain crappy.

All along our prayer was that if God didn't want us in that house that He would make it crystal clear. Let me just spare you the details and cut to the chase-we backed out of the house today because yesterday it was made crystal clear to us.

Can I just be 100% honest by saying I am still in a state of shock?

I know God is fully in control. I know that there is a better house waiting for us.
I know that we are blessed to find the damage before we move. I am sad that we will not be living next door to our dear friends. I also know that our friendship is better than us just being neighbors and will continue and grow even if we are not living on the same street. I struggle because Jeff and I just knew that this was the house God was leading us to. I struggle with the fact that we are at square one. I struggle because I am sooooo tired of my apartment. I rest in the fact that soon we will see God's plan unfold. I praise God for the fact that He showed us these things before we closed on the house. I praise God because Jeff and I are fully on the same page and walking this journey together.

So what is the next step?

We are having our realtor friend find a few houses for us to look at in the next week. We are going to sit back, relax and enjoy the journey.

I guarantee you that there may be moments where I just have to sit and pray it out but I refuse to let Satan get a foothold by stealing my joy.

On another note, Jennifer (Jeff's cousin's wife) was admitted to the hospital today. It doesn't look good. So for now, Jeff and I are dropping everything and just loving on the family.

Please pray for God's guidance as we search for house.
Please pray for God's comfort to feel each of us as we walk this journey with Brent and Jennifer.
Please pray for the kids too-my heart breaks when I think about what this means for them.

Good Things To Add to the IPOD

I have two new favorite Christian artists that I think they are worth mentioning to you guys.

1) Addison Road

2) Tenth Avenue North


Tenth Avenue North did a song called By Your Side and well, it has ministered to me over the last few days. Good words to have playing in the ears last night as I drifted off to sleep after a long and crappy day.



Happy Thursday Friends! Today is already turning out to be a much better day--it's the start of March Madness y'all.

Tonight My Heart Is Heavy

Some days are hard and leave you asking "Why God? Why?" These are the words that were spoken by Jeff and I as we prayed for a sweet family member this past Saturday.

Jeff's cousin's wife was diagnosed with melanoma cancer back in September. The cancer has now spread to lungs, stomach and part of her brain. Obviously the diagnosis does not look good. Right now we are in the wait and see time frame and pleading with God for a miracle.

I have not slept a full night since I heard the latest news. My heart has been heavy. Jennifer is only 35 years old with three young kids. I will be honest and say that I think this flat out sucks.

Last night I was tossing so much, Jeff encouraged me to get out of bed to pray it out. I guess after 6 years together he knows the cure to my insomnia. I sat on the floor and just felt numb. I know God's ways are not always our ways but I am at a total loss for words right now. I pray for God to reveal His glory to us. I pray that no matter what this season holds that we would turn to God and lean not on our own understanding. I pray that He fills me with strength as we walk this path with our cousins.

When Jeff and I got home from spending time with them all I wanted to do was hold tight to Jeff. I don't want to let one day go by without hugging him and letting him know how much he means to me. No one knows how long we have on this earth. I am realizing yet again that life is fragile.

I ask all of you to keep Cousin Jennifer in your prayers. Please also pray for Brent, Harrison, PJ and Grayson. The journey is unclear but we know God is with us and guiding us even in this.

The Wait Is Almost Over!

I received an email yesterday telling us that we will probably close March 18-20Th! That's next week y'all! Praise the Lord!

I did the happy dance in the living room/office and then went to tell Jeff who was sleeping.

I got a half asleep high five and then he told me to let him sleep for another hour. The tone translates to "Woman you woke me from my slumber! How dare you?!?"

Five minutes later he comes strolling into the living room/office and says, "Did you say something about closing?"

Turns out the half asleep high five was actually him doing a big stretch with his hand over his head while waking up and he didn't really know what I was saying. My bad-I thought he was awake and coherent.

The other night we spent two hours at Lowe's walking the aisles. I would have been glad to keep going but Jeff was beat. As we were leaving, he teased me that I was the only woman he knew that could out shop a man at the home improvement store. I have found that it really is one of my happy places. I am a freak I know.

I found this light the other night to go over the kitchen sink. Jeff does not like it but has finally resolved the fact he just doesn't have a vision for home decor. This could be because I keep telling him, "Jeff you just don't have the vision do you?"


If there has been anything I have learned in the past few months of planning the home renovation is that you must compromise with each other.

For example, I am giving up my pretty red wall in the living room for a kitchen that is not painted beige but grayish blue. See already we are finding ways to give and take without killing each other in the process. Now that to me is a sign of a good marriage-when you can disagree, find a compromise that works for both parties and still love each other at the end of the day.

I will keep you posted as things progress, I guarantee it!

A Friendly Little Rivalry

Jeff and I went to eat at Bosses pizza tonight. If you haven't been there you should go-super yummy.  Every Tuesday night is $10 pizza night so if you are looking for a cheap date-Bosses is the place.

The one thing I love about Bosses is that they have old school video games.  My favorite being Ms. Pac-Man.  Jeff threw me a quarter tonight and headed to the arcade room.  He played first and then it was my turn.

Look at my score...

Yep, I am now the high score player at the Hurst location.

Don't mess with me and Ms. Pac-Man. It's my favorite.

Don't believe me? Here is a picture from our trip to Florida this summer. We stayed at a KOA in Pensacola, FL and they provided Ms. Pac Man entertainment for free. While my cabin buddies slept in, I played Ms. Pac Man.


And yep, I got the high score there too. 



This post proves that I am either a very skilled Ms Pac Man player or should have spent more time outside as a kid instead of playing video games.

What Happened to Date Night, Jazzy?

Thankfully our anniversary isn't until tomorrow :)

Inspiring Places

It should come as no surprise to you that I CAN'T! WAIT! TO! DECORATE! OUR! NEW! HOME! Over the past few months I have stumbled on a few blogs that also like to decorate their home. Today I wanted to share a few with you because what kind of friend would I be if I didn't share the good stuff? Many of these ladies have links to other inspiring blogs so grab a Cup of Joe and enjoy browsing these sites! Happy Friday!

Little Red House

Cherry's Jubilee Home

The Cottage Nest

Whatever

Chatting at the Sky

Nesting Place

I Heart Spring

The above picture is the pear tree in our backyard that is starting to bloom. I think it is beautiful, don't you.

We also have two plum trees in addition to the pear tree. That right there is one of the main reason we wanted to purchase an older home-mature trees. Score though on the fruit trees. I see a lesson in preserving in my future. Many of you should see a jar of pear and plum preserves in your future too since there is no way I can eat them all by myself.

Anyone know how to do pear and plum preserves? I am going to need a bit of guidance there.

On another note, our apartment office was broken into the other night. Nothing says "It's time to move like a burglary!" Sigh.

We turned in our 30 day notice the other day. The leasing office called said we had to give a 60 day notice. My question is what's the point of going month to month if we have to stay an extra month?!? Sigh.

Jeff is helping me see the bright side of this, we can take our time moving. He wants to do a bit of fixin' up before we move into the house. Things like laminate flooring and painting are easier to do without furniture. The extra 30 days will help us get these things done. See, I can see the bright side of things too.

This weekend Jeff and I celebrate 6 years of marriage by going to a gun show. FABULOUS! I am wishing and hoping he will let me take the car and shop at the antique mall down the street. I know he will because it allows him to browse as long as his little heart desires. I still don't understand how a bunch of men can stand looking at the same gun for 45 minutes. The last time I went with him, I sat in a chair against the wall and watched the men shop. There was one gun that must have been a real beauty because at one point I counted 15 men standing in awe of it. It was like they were looking at the Holy Grail or something. Men are funny creatures.

Enjoy this beautiful spring day if you are in Texas.

I Heart Spring!!!

The Real Me

Tonight I met with two of my favorite people to iron out a few details of the upcoming Women's Renewal at our church (April 24-25, mark your calendars).

What is a Women's Renewal you ask? It's a Friday Evening, Saturday conference for women to renew their minds in Christ, fellowship with the chicks and eat good (not so healthy) food.

Every year I walk away with a deeper understanding of God's word and I feel refreshed from the inside out. This year I know it is going to be no different. I have this whatcha gonna do, God feeling bubbling deep inside of me. I can't wait to watch His plan unfold.

I have a little inside scoop for those of you who read the blog. If you attend you will hear a part of my testimony. I was asked tonight by Margaret to share my story. I am scared to death. No that's not true, I am actually very excited about how God is going to use my story to bless others. Even when I was in the midst of living out my testimony, I knew one day I would be standing in front of a group of people sharing my story. I also found this song a few months back and felt it summed up my feelings for the positive plus sign journey. After talking it over with Margaret tonight, she asked me to share this song as well.

So that means I will be singing and sharing my testimony. Gulp. Maybe that whatcha gonna do, God? feeling is actually indigestion for singing a personal song and sharing personal history with the ladies. Oh who am I kidding! God designed me to be an open book not a closed one so share and sing I shall. Especially if one ladies life can be changed from hearing about my story and how God has blessed me in the good days and bad.

If you live in the DFW area and would like to attend (not because of me but because Margaret Ashmore is AWESOME) please shoot me an email and I will happy to forward you the information. Enjoy the song and no, I don't think I will sing like Natalie Grant although wouldn't that be lovely if I did?

My Birthday Surprise

It's no surprise that my favorite song is Jessie's Girl by Rick Springfield. It also should be no surprise that I have a little bit of a crush on Rick.

He's hot and plays the guitar and sings Jessie's Girl.

Jeff has known that I am a huge fan for quite sometime. Last year I begged Jeff to fly us to LA to hear Rick in concert. I had it all planned out and thought it would be a fun way to get Jeff back to his hometown for the weekend. He said no. I was bummed but took it like a big girl because Rick was coming to Billy Bob's on our anniversary weekend. Again he said no. I did not pout but I thought to myself somehow, someway I am going to see Rick if it's the last thing I do.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago...

Jeff told me he had a surprise for the weekend of February 28Th. He cleared my schedule and gave me strict orders to not add anything else to our calendar. I was fine with that and very proud that I allowed myself to be surprised.

The only hint that he gave me is that we had to be there at 10:30 p.m Saturday and that I would probably want to dress hip.

Hip? What?!?

Saturday afternoon we were running errands when the curiosity got the better of me.

Me-Dallas or Fort Worth?

Jeff- Fort Worth.

Me-Cowtown or Downtown

Jeff-Cowtown.

Me- Billy Bob's?!?!?!

Jeff- Yes, how did you know?

Me- I was born and raised in Fort Worth and there is only one place that starts a concert at 10:30 p.m.

Jeff- Do you want to know who it is we are seeing?

Me- Sure. Is it Rick Springfield?

Jeff- How the heck did you guess that?

Me- Just lucky I guess.

Then I gave him a big hug and proceeded to tell him why he was the greatest.

Poor Guy was surrounded by a bunch of 40 plus year old women and one 31 year old screaming our heads off. When we left the concert he said, "That is the gayest thing I have done in a long time." He's right it was but it was worth hearing Jessie's Girl played live by Rick Springfield.

I told him don't worry I will never make you do that again.

He then gave me a hug and proceeded to tell me why I was the greatest.

P.S. Why yes, I did dance my tail off during Jessie's Girl. Sadly that is really the only song that I knew word for word...I guess I am not the biggest fan after all. The girl next to me knew all the words and his life history including but not limited to, his birthday and birthplace.

Keeping It Simple This Birthday

On Friday my co-worker called and while were talking she asked what my plans were for the weekend. "Well, tomorrow is my birthday...."

To which she replied, "Oh s&*t! I totally forgot!"


I died laughing because she did not try to cover up the fact that she forgot but came right out with a whoops, we forgot. For the record, I did get flowers and this is the first time in 3 years that they have not gone all out. I don't think most jobs treat their employees as good as they treat me on my birthday so I can't complain.

On Saturday, my actual birthday my mom and I spent the day shopping. We hit up Home Goods for the first time and fell in love rather quickly with this store. I bought a few plates to use in our new home. Seriously, this place is a part of TJ Maxx so it's nice stuff for a great price. Check it out, you will be happy you did.

Later that night Jeff took me to my favorite restaurant, The Cheesecake Factory.

The next night we headed over to my in-laws house for Chocolate Cake and a game of Phase 10. Jacob was my partner but he didn't last through first round. Notice the death grip he has on my shirt.

This next weekend is the BIG SURPRISE and dinner at my mom's. And nope, I still don't know what we are doing.

This year has been a great year because it was a very simple and very low key birthday.

Here is one last picture of the littlest nephew. Isn't he adorable?

Almost a Year Later

This picture is so funny to me! Check out my cake...

It was a joke between Jeff and I. He wanted the cake to be tacky, I just wanted the cake to be tasty.

So I wasn't surprised when we were in Sam's and he told me to hang out here (here being the magazine ailse) and off he went. A few minutes went by and I got curious and my little warning light went on alerting me that Jeff was up to something. I found him at the bakery laughing to himself as he filled out the card. When he said, "I got your cake!" I asked to see what he picked out. I knew before I even saw what he chose that it was going to be good.

A bass pro fish with a pink icing is every girl's dream cake, right? Well it really wasn't mine but I embraced it for a good laugh.

Tomorrow is my birthday, another year-another cake and Jeff has something up his sleeve.

I was told the other night that Jeff was clearing my schedule for next weekend. He said that I would not be singing at church because we would not be getting home in time.

I thought about doing a Sydney Bristow mission to find out where we were going but decided that would spoil the fun. Instead I am sitting back and enjoying my time until he spills the beans. And if I know Jeff like I do, he can't keep a secret either so I will know in a day or two.

:)

At my last appointment my doctor said two things that left me knowing God is fully in control.

1) There is nothing medically wrong with me keeping us from getting pregnant. This just proves to me that God's timing is perfect and His timing has not yet come.

2) My doctor told me that I was the most peaceful patient she has ever had who has been where I am today. She said most women in my shoes come in saying "What the hell? What's wrong with me?" Little does she know that I have said those same words many times on my knees crying out to the Lord. Looking back I kick myself for not using her comment as a transition to talking about all the Lord is doing within me. Maybe one day that door will be opened again.

And another tidbit that was just funny to me.

3) Jeff and I have a unspoken agreement between us that these next six months are going to not be about a baby; we want to live each day to the fullest in the present moment. But the other night, I broke that little agreement to tell him about a friend I know who works for an adoption agency.

"So and so works for an adoption agency...we should talk to her to get direction from her if that day comes."

Jeff-"Does she handle Swedish adoptions?"

It took me a minute but then I started laughing and said, "I am not sure I am going to allow you to do a Swedish adoption."

Jeff says, "Why don't you want a hot 18 year old Swedish girl for a daughter?"

"No, I want a baby."

To which Jeff says "I want a baby too."

Then I just had to hold up my hand and say "Whatever Jeff."

:)

I love this man and could not imagine anyone else walking this journey with me.

And let me close with what I write in my journal almost everyday.

I wait with hope.
I live in peace.
I serve with love.

In The Kitchen: Herbed Beef Stew

The following recipe is from one of my favorite crock pot meal cookbooks, Fix It & Forget It. If you own this book it's on page 72, if you don't own it, you should.

What you need:

1 lb beef round, cubed

4 Tbsp seasoned flour (see below)

1 1/2 cups beef broth (I use two cans)

1 tsp Worcestershire sauce

1 garlic clove (or I use 2 tbsp of minced garlic)

4 carrots sliced (I buy a bag of frozen crinkle cut carrots)

3 potatoes, cubed

2 onions, diced

1 rounded tsp fresh thyme or 1/2 tsp of dried thyme

1 rounded tsp chopped fresh basil or 1/2 tsp dried thyme

1 Tbsp fresh parsley or 1 tsp. dried parsley

1 rounded tsp fresh marjoram or 1 tsp dried marjoram (I have no clue what this is so I omitted)

Put meat in slow cooker. Add seasoned flour. Toss with Meat. Stir in all other ingredients. Mix Well. Cover. Cook on high 4-6 hours or low 10-12 hours.

*Seasoned Flour

1 cup flour

1 tsp salt

1 tsp paprika

1/4 tsp pepper

I serve this with fresh bread from the Kroger deli and or make a batch of cornbread. Very yummy and very simple to make.

And would anyone like to enlighten me on what the heck marjoram is? I will be your best friend for life.

A New Beginning

I have started this post off and on and can't seem to find the words to begin writing what is on my heart. I guess I will jump in with both feet.

After six months of infertility treatments we have now reached the stage where the doctor has said my body needs to rest. When I started the medication I had no idea what would happen but I never thought we come out of these past months without a bun in the oven. Last month I was almost nine days late. I didn't get my hopes up too much because I never got a positive pregnancy test. I told only one friend about the possibility that I was pregnant from the beginning. She suggested that I go see the doctor to get blood work after I the third "not pregnant" flashed on the stick. I did and as I was waiting that night for the results-I got my answer without even having to hear the doctor say "Not pregnant." (I tried not to be graphic for my handful of men readers)

Would you believe me if I told you that Jeff didn't even know that I was that late? Yes I kept that quiet this go round. But later when I told him about how my emotions were all over the place he grabbed me and said, "You are not in this alone. I am here." See why I love him to pieces? He also continues to tell me repeatedly how much he loves me and that he didn't marry me for kids. He married me because he couldn't imagine spending the rest of his life without me. Again, do you see why I love him?

A few months ago, I decided that I would no longer share this journey on the blog. I was afraid that I was starting to sound like Debbie Downer on SNL. But over the last two weeks, I have found a community of women in blog land who have or are going through the same journey. I have become a huge fan of Kelly's blog and cried like a baby when I read this post. That post sums up exactly how I am feeling today. And as many of you know, Psalms 37 is the verse I am clinging to right now. But by Kelly sharing her story in such a real way people are leaving comments about how their faith has changed and some have even said that they gave their life to Christ because of experiencing all the things God has done for them.

To me that in itself is the main reason I started this blog-to show God all the things He has been doing for us. I am not sure why I got away from that, maybe I lost myself a bit or maybe I was just too tired of talking about it all. And at this point, I don't know how much of those details I want to share anymore because that is really not where my focus is today. All I know is that over the past few weeks God has been tugging at my heart for me to start writing again and sharing a few things He has been showing me in scripture.

And that dear friends is me, jumping in with both feet.

God bless your journey-He is blessing mine daily!

Boy was I Bummed

The picture above is what I found when I walked into the kitchen this morning. Someone had themselves a pancake feast while I was sound asleep. Boy was I bummed!

But to be fair, he did try to wake me up but I wasn't having it.

I guess that is what I get for taking a sleeping pill close to midnight last night. It was either take a sleeping pill or be up at 4 am wide awake. I think sleeping through the night was the better of the two.

I hate that I missed out Jeff's pancakes but was so happy that he cleaned up after himself. Isn't he thoughtful! I think I will keep him.

It's the Simple Things That Make Me Happy

1. A quiet weekend at home
2. Snuggling close to hubs while we watched Fox News Friday night
3. Woke up Saturday morning and chatted with hubs while drinking coffee
4. Cleaning out the closet and throwing things away for the big move
5. Taking two large bags of stuff to a resale shop that helps abused women get back on thier feet
6. Lunch with good friends Sunday afternoon
7. Sunday afternoon naps-a sacred thing at our house
8. deep theological discussions with the small group at church (my head is still spinning)
9. finishing up the weekend sitting next to hubs and reading a good book

Sometimes you just need a list to remember the simple things that make you happy.

Have a great Monday-I am off to make a buck for the furniture company

A Cardinal In My Window

Yesterday I saw a cardinal sitting on a branch outside our window at the new house. Why is this important? Well let me tell you.

You see the past few months I have been playing a little game with God over the past few months each time I visit the house. As I have been praying for God's leading on where He was leading us I have also prayed for a sign. The sign? A red cardinal.

For the past six months every time I have been at the house I start looking for my cardinal. In fact, on the drive over, I usually ask God if today is going to be the day I see my cardinal. I guess I should also mention that I am prone to talking out loud to God while driving.

Yesterday as we were getting ready to sign our name on the dotted line, I happened to look out the kitchen window. Do you know what I saw? Yes! That's right, a cardinal. I got so excited that I cried out "My cardinal! I have seen my cardinal!" Which lead to me getting that look from Jeff saying you better explain yourself rather quickly or they will think you are nuts. After I explained myself my friend June said, "Isn't God good?" Yep. God is good.

How cool is it that as we were signing the contract that I see a cardinal outside the kitchen window? God's timing is perfect and I feel so blessed that He brought us the cardinal at just that moment.

Plus with a view like that washing dishes sure will be a sweet time!

Girls Night!

Last night my mom, Missy and new friend Amy snuck away for a live taping of Life Today. Kari Jobe was there promoting her new album. I heart Kari!

We received a copy of her CD for attending and when I got home I pulled out my old school Walkman, threw on my comfy pj's, crawled under the covers and listened all the way through. I felt like I was back in high school enjoying my new CD.

The CD will be released on February 10Th and I strongly suggest that you add it to your music library. It is full of worshipful songs that everyone can relate to.

In less than 60 days this will be our home. The home that Jeff and I have prayed over and waited for God to show us which way to go. To say I am excited would be the understatement of the year.

I am still under strict orders not to show any portion of the outside of the house that could cause stranger danger. Fortunately many of you already know where this house is located and with a few clues you will know exactly the house we are buying.

1. The name of the street is a tree.

2. The house is two blocks from the Home of the Fighting Cardinals.

3. If you keep going three more blocks you will be at the street where I grew up.

4. My neighbors are great friends of many of us. In fact our group from the high school youth group spent most Wednesday nights hanging at there house.

Still don't know? Don't worry, we will be sending an email in the next few months with our new address and phone number. Stop by anytime!

Do you want to hear the funny part about this whole process? For years, YEARS, Jeff and I have been praying for God to open doors for us to move. As we waited, we continued to save money and get out of debt but I was starting to get very restless. Let's just say working for a huge furniture company in the middle of my one bedroom apartment has been a real challenge.

During this time I prayed for three specific things. 1) an older home that we could remodel. 2) A house with lots of trees. 3) a house with a separate space for an office

In late June, I had lunch with my soon to be neighbor. We were sitting in her living room talking about how I would love to live on this street. She and I have been keeping our eye out since the day Jeff and I got married for a house to come on the market in their neighborhood but nothing was happening. In July, after the Disney Trip of 08, Jeff and I decided it was time to start the house hunt. I continued to secretly wish for God to open a house for us next to our friends but was happy to go anywhere as long as Jeff and I were together. :) Less than two weeks after we started looking, I received a call from my friend telling me about a house across the street. "Are you serious?" It was more than I could hope or imagine. When I hung up the phone I immediately started to pray that God would either open or close the door if we were to move-His will be done and all that. I waited two days to tell Jeff, mostly because he was working crazy hours (more so than usual) and I really didn't think he would go for it. I was so nervous to hear the word no.

Jeff as usual was very cautious about what direction we would take but was open to the idea although he need to sleep on it a bit. And thanks be to God, I kept my mouth shut as he mulled it over. Somewhere deep inside I knew that this would be the house we would be buying one day. The first day we went to look at the house-our friends we were buying the house from, left us alone in the house to talk it over. As we were standing in the kitchen debating this and that, I had a moment where I felt at home. This was home but Jeff was still not there yet. I think the foundation being slanted and bricks cracked was a large part of his hesitation. Fast forward, after months of waiting for the foundation to be repaired we were pleasantly surprised to see that the house had been fixed. Christmas morning instead of opening presents, we sat and discussed paint colors and which color of hardwood floors we were going to put down. It was one of my favorite Christmas mornings.

This past Saturday night, we went over to our soon to be neighbors house and had dinner. When we left our neighbors house that night, Jeff and I walked across the street and walked through our new home for a bit. Yes, we do have a key to a house that we have yet to sign a contract for but that's what happens when you buy a house from great family friends. A perk I guess.

Come March 31st we will be home owners-praise be to God. Stay tuned, I look forward to sharing the adventures of homeownership.